People tell me too much that I’m good at things. “Gee your really good with computers”, or “that’s amazing how you can do that in a spreadsheet”, etc. don’t get me wrong, if I had to choose between getting told I’m good at something or crap at something, I’d prefer the uplifting-ness of the complement. However I found myself recently thinking about this, people hardly see the things I do badly. I either don’t show them, or just avoid the activity at all. No one says “gee Andrew your rubbish at sports” because they never see me attempt to play any sport.
Well this writing experience feels like playing sport, but instead of just goofing around in the backyard trying to kick a goal, everyone can see my poor performance. (Although to date no body has). I’m finding this exercise really difficult. The first two days were easy and fun, but now it’s starting to take its toll, a grand total of 4 days in.
I’m not sure what the blocking element is. I can string multiple words together. Pretty much all of them are spelt correctly thanks to spell checker on the iPad. English is my first and only language, so I should be a pro at this. But I don’t feel like I’m a pro. Maybe that is where the problem lies, I don’t feel like I’m good, so I don’t even try to improve. After all I don’t have to be amazing at everything. But I probably should be comfortable writing in my native language.