How to bottle up jealousy & anger & use it for good & not evil

I wish I could provide myself with some clear advice on how to actually do what the title of the posts says, but unfortunately I am not there yet.

I am encouraged by the stories of those who came from nothing & rose to something. I think we all are at some level. But that encouragement doesn’t turn to motivation. And without that fire to get the job done, whatever it takes, it seems that only average results follow. 

I want to be the best….but not that badly

When I look around me, with the people I know, very few of them are   truely busting their ass to get to where they want to go. I do not feel like one of them. (Others may disagree, however I don’t feel like I’m getting the outcome I’m looking for). I feel like a lazy western white guy. I don’t have to really work hard to get paid. I sit at a computer and bang away on some buttons, make things happen and in return get some cash. I don’t have to pick up heavy things, rarely do I need to work odd hours (however I am more productive outside of bankers hours, than in), nor do I have to juggle kids or staff. I feel that I work hard in busts on projects.

I think I’m just too comfortable and too afraid to make a jump….in any direction. Without jumping, the world is rushing past and I am getting left behind.

I use to be a long term thinker, but for some reason life beat that idea out of me. I feel so short sighted and like I’m just jumping from small thing to small thing.

I have no answers, only questions.

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